Category Archives: Reflections

It Is Cold Today!

It rarely gets this cold during winter here in the Houston/Galveston area. This morning when I awoke the thermometer read 24 degrees. Last night we turned off the water into the house as a precaution to freezing pipes.

This morning I was having a hard time deciding on whether or not to walk Maximus. Finally, after enduring sad dog eyes, I decided just to walk around the block one time. After about 5 minutes my hands were red and turning numb. My face was hurting and numb. I have always wondered what it felt like to be in a really cold area – where the temperature is in the negative numbers. I can  not handle temperatures in the mid-20’s. Supposedly, it is suppose to be cold for a couple of more days. All I want is the sun to come out and warm the earth.

Maximus

The End of 2010

Well, I had big plans for today.  However, I have not accomplished the plans.  What I have realized is that I must get organized or I am going to go insane.  I wanted to post some pictures of all the places and events that took place in 2010. I started thinking of all the places and trips I took but I can not find the pictures.  My filing system stinks. (This year my husband purchased a new camera and I received his old one – a Nikon D40)  My pictures are not very good and I need to learn how to use the camera.  My husband says just start taking pictures and soon you will learn what you are doing wrong.

I have digressed.  My office/craft room is a disaster.  I want to work on projects and have all my paperwork filed so I can start fresh in 2010.  That was my plan for today.  Get my office organized.  This job must be bigger than I thought because instead of working in the office I had to make sour dough bread.  I could not let the starter that someone gave to me go to waste.  I then had to bake cookies for the New Year’s Eve that I plan to attend.

Here are pictures of my baking time.

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I have sampled the cookies and they are delicious.  I hope I will be able to say the same for the bread.

Well, I need to get cleaned up for the get together and maybe I have a few minutes to work on office organization – otherwise known as cleaning.

 

Christmas or Xmas?

Yesterday I was at the hair salon and the hair dressers and customers got into a lively discussion on whether or not the word “Xmas” was disrespectful to Christians since it is like taking Christ out of Christmas.  I am always interested in how words change and how people understand the words.  I made the comment that I had heard that the word “Xmas” was taking Christ out of Christmas but I was not sure that was correct.  I said that the word “Xmas” probably had a different meaning when it originated.  Most of the participants in the discussion were pretty sure that “Xmas” is a way to take Christ out of Christmas.  One lady even discussed a sign that had “Xmas” in the wording and how she went in and discussed with the proprietor how this was being against Christians and the holiday of Christmas.  The sign was then changed by the proprietor.

The answer to the question is – No.  The word “Xmas” has been around for a long time and it is not taking Christ out of Christmas.

Quoted from Wikipedia (For those who are interested in the whole article here is the link http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Xmas.)

For those with less time because of the Christmas season here is the quick version.

Xmas” is a common abbreviation of the word “Christmas“. It is sometimes pronounced /ˈɛksməs/, but it, and variants such as “Xtemass”, originated as handwriting abbreviations for the typical pronunciation, /ˈkrɪsməs/. The “-mas” part is from the Latin-derived Old English word for “mass“,[1] while the “X” comes from the Greek letter Chi, which is the first letter of the Greek word Χριστός, translated as “Christ”.”

 

Am I a Fool?

This quote is from a post about wisdom and how sin reduces us all to fools.

Here are the four aspects of foolishness.

  1. Foolishness of self-centeredness
  2. Foolishness of self-deception
  3. Foolishness of self-sufficiency
  4. Foolishness of self-righteousness

 

Under foolishness of self-centeredness, Paul Tripp writes “Often our living has no greater purpose than self-satisfaction and self-fulfillment. Does this sound harsh? Well, ask yourself, “Why do I ever get impatient with others?” “Why do I ever say things I shouldn’t say?” “Why do I get discouraged with my circumstances?” “Why do I give way to anger or give in to self-pity?” The answer is that, like me, you want your own way, and when things don’t go your way or people are in your way, you lash out in anger or you turn inward in discouragement.

Am I being foolish?  Am I being self-centered?  It is hard to thing that my life has not greater purpose than self-satisfaction and self-fulfillment.  Lately, I have asked myself the questions listed above – “Why am I impatient with my family”; “why do I say things I shouldn’t say?” – why, why, why.

My 23 year-old son will be leaving on January 3 to go into the army.  He is excited about this choice that he has made and I truly want to be happy for him.  But, my heart is full of fear.  I find myself saying things that I wish I could take back.

Last night my son purchased a new car – a sports car.  My husband co-signed for the loan.  I am not too happy about this because I was not consulted.  My husband then put the car on our insurance policy.  Having two drivers under the age of 25 on a car insurance policy is very expensive.  Again, I was not consulted. Anyway, my son is has been out on his own for over a year.  He wants to be independent from us. He does not want us to know about his financial affairs and I think it is about time that he is responsible for his own car insurance.  Right now he reimburses us for the car insurance but he is not very reliable about making the payment when I need it to pay the bill. I think we should support his desire to be independent from us and put his car on his own insurance policy.  Anger builds.  My son is happy about his new car.  He would like me to express happiness for him.  It is hard.  I say the wrong things.  Most likely because I am angry because nobody is consulting me and thinking that what I think is important.  I wish the words could be taken back.  Too late.

I am making everyone miserable because I have not been consulted.  Is it truly that important? Am I being self-centered – thinking more highly of the way I would do things?  Has sin – my self-centeredness turned me into a fool?

Overheard at My Own Funeral

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If I were a fly on the wall at my own funeral, I think the first thing people would say is “Who did the makeup? She looks horrible.”

Actually, I believe this question was in a book that I read by Steven Covey several years ago. One of the exercises was to write out what people would say about me at my funeral. I was stumped. The things that I thought of were – She seems nice but I did not know her very well. I think she loved God because she was at church all the time. She loved her husband and children very much. Pretty pathetic. It seems my world is pretty small.

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Patience

I have been thinking a lot about the prayer that I posted yesterday and how impatient I am as a person.  The prayer goes a long so well with the subject of my Wednesday night bible study class.  We are studying the fruits of the spirit and we are using the book “Ways to Develop a God-Filled Life  Patterns” by Mel Lawrenz.

Last Wednesday, the lesson was on patience.  The book outlines two different kinds of patience.  “One is the courage to endure” and the other is the “willingness to wait.” The books then focuses more on the second kind of patience since this a “more everyday kind of patience.”

As my kids were growing up, I was always telling them not to wish their life away when they made such statements as “I can’t wait until I am 13, or 16, or 21.”  The author states “we should make sure today doesn’t pass up by,  while making equally sure we don’t try to live tomorrow today.”  As I was reading this, I realized that even though I told my kids the above statement that I was just as bad about trying to “live tomorrow today”.  I don’t know how many times I have just been focused about a future event that the event is all I can think about that I can not even remember what I did up to the days of the event.

The other thing the author states is “All of us need to be patient as we forbear the rough edges of each other’s personalities.  This is so true and where I think that the prayer that I posted yesterday speaks to me.  I need patience so much when people do not stay on track with my time table.  That is especially a problem if the person does not even know what my time schedule is all about.

Today I am going to try to focus on these statements that the author writes on my quest to develop patience.

Patience is faith in action because it says:

  • I believe God is in control of life.
  • I believe God has given you great potential.
  • I believe trust is basic to life.

Patient is hope in action because it says:

  • I expect that God has great things in mind for the future.
  • Today’s hurt will not remain forever.
  • I know that right will prevail over wrong.

Patience is love in action because it says:

  • You are worth waiting for.
  • Thanks for putting up with my many faults.
  • I know you don’t always mean what you say.
  • I’ll get over being disappointed.

My Daughter Has Left for Italy!

This Thursday May 13, my husband and I drove my daughter to start her adventure.  She is attending school in Italy for the summer through the college she attends.  I found it quite ironic how my husband was giving me such a hard time with all the questions that I was asking Emily. The questions went something like this.  Do you have your plane tickets?  Do you have your passport? Do you think you need to take a coat? I looked on the internet and I thought it seemed like she might need a coat or she would be cold.  Of course, my daughter did the typical thing – rolled her eyes and said “yes, mom.  I have it under control.” I truly wanted to kick my husband when we are watching Emily go through security and he leans over to ask – “Did you remind Emily not get let her carry on bag out of her sight?”  He then proceeds to call our daughter in the security line to remind her of his last words of advice and then give me a hard time because I did not ask that question.

I know that Emily will learn many things on this trip.  I know that she will have some truly awesome experiences.  But, it is amazing how hard it is not to worry.  I really wanted Emily to call me when she made it to Atlanta, then once again when she was in New York.  While I was at work, I placed the phone on my desk so I would not miss any calls or texts.  Much to my chagrin she did not text or call.  I could not help myself and sent off a text when I thought she would still be in Atlanta.  She finally responded just as I was getting ready to leave work. She was in New York.  So I thought I would give her a quick call.  You know, the last call before she left for Pisa.  (We had instructed her that her cell phone was only for emergencies while in Italy because of the cost.  That she needed to communicate though Skype or e-mails. )  She answered the phone but only said that the flight was good and she had to go.  I was happy she was in New York but disappointed that she did not want to talk some more about her flight and experiences.

After some reflection, I have come to following conclusions:

  1. No news is good news.
  2. I am a worry wart.
  3. Emily is an adult even though I treat her like my child – my precious child.
  4. I must trust God to take care of her.

Blue Monday

I learned from the Houston Chronicle that tomorrow is Blue Monday.  A psychologist in the United Kingdom calculated the most depressing day on the calendar.  That day is  the third Monday in January which is on January 18.  To calculate the most depressing day on the calendar such factors as weather and debt were considered.

I can see why “Blue Monday” is in January.  It is winter time.  It is too cold most of the time to do the outdoor activities that I like to do.  The trees  and plants look dreary and dead.  Also, the bills for all those Christmas presents have arrived and everyone is trying to figure out how to pay the bills and wishing that they had not spent so much money.  According to the article the solution to “Blue Monday” is to get happy.  So my question is how do I “get happy”?

As I read the paper, I came upon the solution in black and white.  An article in the Parade section of the paper listed the following on “How to Get Happy”.

  1. Act happy – even if you aren’t yet.  Does that make me a poser?  Supposedly, it will cheer me up and everyone else around me.  I definitely will give that a try tomorrow at work.
  2. Seek out positive distractions.  Think about what gives me pleasure and do it. Don’t wait for the activity to come to me – take the action myself.  This sounds fun.  But I will have to wait until the evening to do this.  I do not think my boss will like me daydreaming at work or taking time out to go to the movies.
  3. Do one thing at a time – at least for one or two hours a day.  Apparently, multitasking can make me feel tense.  Focusing on one activity  calming and will  allow me to enjoy the experience fully.  No more watching TV and reading a book at the same time.  Or watching TV and washing dishes.  My personal favorite is watching TV and falling asleep during the show. Actually, that is quite pleasurable.
  4. Take action.  Supposedly, passivity will make me feel worse.  Choosing to change, even a very small step, is a mood enhancer.  I believe that taking action will make me happy.  I just need to remember to take the small step instead of the giant leap.  The giant leap is what usually causes me such stress.  So the small step that I am going to take tomorrow is act  positive about tomorrow in hopes that I will beat “Blue Monday” and have a happy day.

What about you? How are you planning on beating the blues?

Clay in the Potter’s Hand

So far this weekend has been fantastic. We had our Ladies Day Retreat Friday and today. Our speaker was Gail Matthews and she spoke on “Clay in the Potter’s Hand.” Our Lesson was based on Jeremiah 18:1-6.

Jeremiah 18:1-6
The word that came to Jeremiah from the Lord: “Arise, and go down to the potter’s house, and there I will let you hear my words.” So I went down to the potter’s house, and there he was working at his wheel. And the vessel he was making of clay was spoiled in the potter’s hand, and he reworked it into another vessel, as it seemed good to the potter to do. Then the word of the Lord came to me: “O house of Israel, can I not do with you as this potter has done? declares the Lord. Behold, like the clay in the potter’s hand, so are you in my hand, O house of Israel.”

Our speaker pointed out that as Christians we are the spiritual house of Israel so this metaphor of the potter and the clay apply to us today. Wow!!! To think that God is working in my life as what seems good to Him. You know I like control. Today, I have been reminded that control is something that I really do not have.

Our speaker spoke a acrostic using the word clay.
C – Called
L – Lovely
A – Awakened
Y – Yielded

I think that maybe I was awakened today while listening to our speaker. Galatians 3:20 reminds me that I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me. So I am to be Christ-like in my words and deeds! Ouch! I much to reflect upon as I think about my deeds this past week. I do not think some of them were a good reflection of Christ.

I also found the word yielded to be powerful. The clay has to be ready to yield. Am I really willing to yield everything to God? It seems I have much to reflect and pray about this next week.

Blogging Newbie

I admit it! I do not know that much about blogging. I mean I know that I type a post and then it is put on the webpage and that people can then read it. In fact, my blog is relatively unknown and I am okay with that. My only reader is my dear sister who I love very much. Now the most interesting thing about blogging is the stastics that you can look at that tell how many people look at your page.

I did it. I posted a viral video on my blog. I am such a newbie that I did not even know what a viral video was until my sister-in-law told me what it meant. At first I thought I was spreading computer viruses all over the computer world. But, then I was told it is just a popular webpage ect. that spreads like a virus.

Well, I was viral. I was excited! I had over 100 looks at my blog. I was on cloud nine until ….anxiety kicked in. What if I had written something that would hurt someone’s feeling?? What if I broke some blogger rule??? I had to take some deep breaths and remember or rediscover the reason I started this blog. I think I started blogging because I love to read blogs, books and just about anything I can get my hands on. Secretly, I like to write but I always worry about what I write about and if it is completely off based. Then I tell myself that it is okay – everyone has an opinion and I can have one too. And of course, the only one who reads me and comments is my sister who loves me. I do not think she would post an unkind comment – or at least I hope she does not.

So once again I am pretty much an unread blog – except when people want to view my viral video.