Why is Change so Hard?

It has been awhile since I last posted a new entry on my blog.  This time of year it is always hectic for me and to top it off it has been full of changes.  I hate change.

1. My boss sold his practice late last summer.  That means I have a new boss.  At first this did not bother me because the plan was for the “old” boss to still work in the office even if his hours were less than before.  He would still review my work etc.  This change did not hit home until the beginning of this year when my “old” boss passed away.   Now I am trying to adjust to all the new procedures and expectations of a new boss.  To be perfectly honest after working for someone for 20 years you get pretty comfortable with what is expected.
2. My son joined the Army.  My son is 23 years old and can make this decision.  The change that I am finding hard right now while he is at boot camp is communication.  Before if I need to talk to him I could just pick up the phone.  Or if I wanted to see him I just needed to get in the car and drive five minutes to his apartment. The idea that he might be sent to Afghanistan or some other hostile environment is  just too hard to think about right now. By the way, his job in the army is combat medic.
3. My husband is interviewing for a new job. He started working on his days off this past fall in the hopes that a position would become available.  It has been hard adjusting to all the time that he is away working.  A new position has become available and that is the one he is interviewing for. In the course of events he has also started talking about retirement.   I am thinking  – What – we can’t retire we do not have enough saved up.  We are too young – we are in our early 50’s – to retire.  Thinking about retirement and all the changes that entails is scary.  By the way my youngest is still in college.  Talk about scary finances.

I think the best solution to all this change is to pray to God about these changes. I part I have a hard time understanding is when did change become so hard.

When I graduated from college and got married that change was exciting and new and I could hardly wait for it to happen.  When my babies were born, the addition of a new family member causes a lot of change but it was another change that I looked forward to.

Maybe over time and I look at this when my eyesight is 20/20 all these changes will not seem to hard.